reviews and reflections

this is a space to assess what i have been reading.

Cleaner, by Jess Shannon

08/10/2026 - xx

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 01/02/2026 at Strand Books, NYC

currently reading…
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xx
xx
xx
xx

El Pinguino
at home

Wild Dark Shore, by Charlotte McConaghy

08/09/2026 - xx

Novel; Hardcover
Acquired 09/21/2025 from bookoutlet.com

currently reading…
xx
xx
xx
xx
xx

The Bedford
on the train

Kingfisher, by Rozie Kelly

07/30/2026 - 08/08/2026

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 07/07/2026 at Strand Books, NYC

immediately liked this one. very honest, quite lovely. at times a little flowery, but the voice really captured me. couldn’t quite tell / didn’t really care where the story was going, so long as i could follow this particular voice. an interesting choice (complimentary) to tell the story from a man’s pov. at first, there are a lot of moving parts that create a seductive story. felt a little naughty. juicy. slowly things level out, and unfortunately the story becomes a little more forgettable than i would’ve originally expected. but still, a very good book.

Decades Pizza
Win Son
Sey Coffee
Sobre Masa
on the train
at home

Annie Bot, by Sierra Greer

07/23/2026 - 07/29/2026

Novel; Paperback
Acquired 09/27/2025 from bookoutlet.com

very enjoyable, a little empty. i loved following annie around the confines of shithead doug’s apartment and on her adventure with sweet delta. i was steadily engaged, eager to see where the story was going. there were a few times i thought the plot was turning into something else but it stayed on a straight and narrow path. while i wanted nothing more than to see annie lose her shit and annihilate doug, i’ll say the ending works really well. though anti-climactic i’m glad annie was able to return to the one place she ever felt real peace. enjoyability aside, this book lacks the means to provoke much thought. indeed, men can and will suck the life out of anything given the chance. we are aware!! i’m not really sure what the point of this book is, but always happy to read from new perspectives. just wish it provided more ideas to engage with. while the sentences are well crafted, some inconsistencies around the science of it all took me out of the story. also, was surprised jacobson didn’t keep delta to reanimate his dead son. seemed like the perfect opportunity? hope annie’s living her best lakeside life.

La Cantine
Layla
on the bus
on the train
at home

On the Savage Side, by Tiffany McDaniel

07/18/2026 - xx

Novel; Paperback
Acquired 10/19/2025 from penguinrandomhouse.com

i can’t read this book right now. will i ever? i hope so, because i do love tiffany mcdaniel. but damn this book is such a downer. there is some exquisite(!) writing here, but no hope. not even a little. these girls’ only source of affection and care gets run over by a car almost immediately. everyone is created in an image difficult to sympathize with. overall, it’s a tough read. not only is the content bleak as fuck, it’s dense and poetic and even nonsensical at times. still, a lot of beauty. hopefully someday i can find the strength to give it another try.
paused @ 185/453

at home only

Sunburn, by Chloe Michelle Howarth

07/08/2026 - 07/18/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from SPL via Libby

objectively heartbreaking, but not very emotionally effective. lucy’s longing is obsessive and therefore repetitive. there’s no space to breathe, yearn. the entire book is her wanting susannah, yet this want is not particularly personal. it’s expected, there’s no new perspective. granted, every aspect of lucy’s life is a bit oppressive, so it makes sense that she isn’t able to be vulnerable. i understand that and acknowledge howarth’s feat of making lucy consistent on the page. still, it left me wanting. i did appreciate the stream of consciousness accurately depicting the teenage mind’s tendency to overthink and be overly sensitive. the impossible task of managing your friends’ jealousy, emotions, reactions. this exhausting obsessive thinking moves from character to reader in a very immersive way. sadly i kind of hated lucy. though maybe that’s not by accident. she often admits to being manipulative, to using people. her lack of self reflection, revelation did not help her case. when finally she takes charge of her life, it’s only when she’s left with no other options. i totally get that she is not able to act the way she desires. she’s in a frustrating, and frustratingly common, situation in which she must subject herself to a life of lies in order to survive her society, her family. for that, i’m not bothered by her lack of action, only her unwavering mindset. it became a little boring being inside an un-evolving mind. overall, i enjoyed a lot of the prose, the religious language around worship, but was pretty bored with the story. not bad by any means, just disappointing. probably should stop trusting the internet.

at home
on the bus
on the train

Kin, by Tayari Jones

06/29/2026 - 07/16/2026

Novel; Hardcover
Acquired 05/13/2026 at TJ Maxx, Atlas Park NYC

within the first page or two, i knew this would be a five star read. i must have an affinity for books set in the south. they pull from reality an indescribable mix of warmth and terror to create a cleverly layered story. something shadowy concealed by the sun, something unspeakable held in a smiling mouth. from a distance, i am intrigued by the unfamiliar landscape, humor, idiosyncrasies, history, values; even more so: i am delighted. held rapt through a series of shit events that lead to an unhappy ending, i was keen to spend time with each of the girls. i enjoyed both of the worlds they inhabited and appreciated the distance between them. at points i was infuriated by annie, but that doesn’t mean i didn’t understand her.

at home only

Yesteryear, by Caro Claire Burke

06/14/2026 - 06/28/2026

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 03/16/2026 at Strand Books, NYC

despite this being an original, of-the-moment story, i think it’s pretty bland and honestly… not good. after reaching the halfway mark, i was driven purely by a curiosity fueled by the internet’s inability to shut up about this book. it is overall loved, yet hated for its ending. unfortunately i guessed the twist early on, so i was pretty unaffected by the reveal. in the end i was entertained, but i spent most of my time reading annoyed. the story is focused, sometimes painfully clear in its intentions, ideals. everyone plays a specific, supportive role and the plot unfolds quite smoothly. thankfully quite a low effort read. it is, however, too long. the off-the-grid perspective is so boring and repetitive. and the modern living is equally unbearable as we are stuck in the head of an insufferably horrible person. it has its funny moments but for the most part, natalie’s equally nasty and naive view of the world is obnoxious. there is a disconnect between the way young and present-day natalie view and interact with the world that doesn’t read as character growth but simply as the writer’s plain lack of continuity. what did endure throughout was my hate for each and every character. except maeve, bless her little malnourished heart. i am still desperate to know: what was the point, other than to shit on tradwives?

at home mostly
on the train

The Diving Pool, by Yoko Ogawa

06/13/2026 - 06/19/2026

Translated from Japanese, by Stephen Snyder

Short Stories; Paperback
Acquired 05/19/2026 from worldofbooks.com

always eerie, always alluring. always something repulsive, chilling, completely peculiar to discover, yet it is unearthed in such a spectacular, cinematic world that the uncertain depths do not scare you. wherever ogawa wants to go, i’m down for the ride. i don’t ever really know what to expect, but overall there is a devout focus on vulnerability and cruelty. seemingly average people reveal their evil tendencies to make you question even the most unremarkable figures. ogawa’s books don’t instill a great deal of confidence in humanity, but these are not punishing, depressing stories. there is an accessible poetry to her prose that offers lightness and beauty to our everyday routines and ruminations. of these three novellas, the one i understood least was the dormitory, though maybe i liked it the most.

Bleecker St Cafe
on the train

The Most, by Jessica Anthony

06/06/2026 - 06/10/2026

Novella; Paperback
Acquired 06/01/2026 at Magus Books Annex, Seattle

there’s nothing necessarily wrong with this book, but it felt unnecessary. i was mesmerized by its cover and incredibly intrigued by the blurb proclaiming it a ‘literary mousetrap’. i awaited something snappy and unnerving, but found it more meandering and creeping. rather: cat-and-mouse. there are some effective points of tension, and smartly placed strings connecting past and present to add context and create unease. otherwise it’s quite placid and mild in temperature, kind of like kathleen sitting in that pool all day. i will say, it’s a cool achievement that this story is not only set in the 1950s but written in the style of that time, though published in 2024. convincing, unfortunately the most does very little.

Maple Leaf Reservoir Park
3041
on the plane

Foster, by Claire Keegan

05/31/2026 - 05/31/2026

Novella; Hardcover
Borrowed from Dad

like opening an oyster shell to find that the salty-sweet meat nourishes as much as any fine feast could. there is so much heart in this little book. everything feels warm and touched by the sun, even as our young narrator keenly observes the disparity of love from parental figures, and we knowingly inch closer to the end of summer. i was expecting something dark from the mid-point onward, but instead was sustained by joy, curiosity, devotion, and a life-affirming affection. despite the little time spent with these characters, the ending brought tears to my eyes.

3041

The Glutton, by AK Blakemore

05/30/2026 - 07/06/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from BEPL via Libby
Book Club with Mikaela & Abigail

grotesque, whimsical, crude, poetic. can’t stop thinking about tartare’s bad breath. this is a nasty ass book, and yet, it was beautiful. you can tell that blakemore is a poet. the story comes second to the prose and because of that this book took forever to get through. it was not an unpleasant experience but it certainly took some effort, and i felt relief in reaching its end. blakemore’s ability to switch from artful to viscerally affecting lines never lost its novelty. i was constantly entertained in moving between states of awe and disgust. i only hoped for some relief on behalf of tartare along his series of unfortunate events. i wanted so badly for someone to show him affection, kindness without ulterior motives. surprised how much sympathy i felt for a baby-eater.

Oddfellows
Grand Central Bakery
3041
on the train
on the plane

Perfection, by Vincenzo Latronico

05/22/2026 - 05/30/2026

Novella; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from BEPL via Libby

Translated from Italian, by Sophie Hughes

another millennial shame-fest (similar nightmare to reading rejection). if not short and set in berlin, i wouldn't have bothered finishing this. nothing is compelling and no one is endearing. relatable, yes, but there's no imagination. might as well be a hyper-contemporary, emotionally-deficient memoir. i think this would be more successful if read later, as a time capsule of this moment. at present, i am bored. the stakes feel so low. these bland people are ok and will continue on being ok and having boring sex. the consistent pace throughout provides no highs / lows, turning the story into an amorphous blob. simply a cold inventory of life, illustrating how one can feel empty despite being in a house filled with beautiful things, and of course: sOciAL mEDia iS bAd. but thank you for letting me know i'm not the only one whose brain instinctively tries to command-z real life.

on the train
on the bus
on the plane

The Coin, by Yasmin Zaher

05/19/2026 - 05/22/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from NYPL via Libby

big thanks to our entertaining narrator for guiding me through this wacky micro-plotted story. though struck by its intelligence and singular voice, i’m still trying to make sense of it all. we follow an anonymous, lonely woman trying to survive america as a palestinian trust-fund adult orphan. she’s carrying around her past life in the form of an imaginary coin lodged in an impossible-to-reach spot on her back. despite her attempt at geographical and emotional distance, her old trauma is an itch that longs to be scratched, literally. evading this concern, she dives headfirst into every endeavor, slipping into the present task as a means to survive herself. everything feels rooted in survival and yet she rejects healing. her whole lifestyle feels very untethered. both transient and mentally unhinged. her need for some control imposes itself as an obsession with cleanliness. love the critical appraisal of dirty NYC, almost treating it as another character. in this new american life, she spends time with men who she doesn’t really care for, handles her teaching responsibilities without much regard for the potential consequences, and generally avoids any type of vulnerability. these little failings lead us to the finale: testing her ability to survive an artificial wilderness within her apartment. luxury gone, dependent on her connection to the self. her body the only true home she has.

The Bedford
on the train

The Echoes, by Evie Wyld

05/15/2026 - 05/26/2026

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 01/02/2026 at Strand Books, NYC

i love evie wyld’s writing. it is dark and haunting, lush and familiar. the setting is so vivid while much action is left undescribed. instead: alluding to violence and focusing on the reverberated aftereffects. the echoes, if you will. this book takes on many perspectives, my favorite being ‘then’. the mix of familial eccentricities, dynamics, and pain are beautifully balanced and play out against a humid, grimly-storied landscape. the past is given proper attention and shown fully layered, though in some cases a little convoluted. the biggest disappointment is the ‘after’ chapters. i was not charmed by max in the afterlife. i couldn’t see the point beyond narrative device and that’s an unfortunate thing to be aware of. otherwise, this book exemplifies so much of what i look for in every novel.

Leo
Ten Bells
Otis
on the train
at home

Vox, by Nicholson Baker

05/12/2026 - 05/17/2026

Novella; Paperback
Acquired 04/28/2026 at Molasses Books, NYC

an unexpected delight. love that the entire book is just one long telephone conversation. very in the moment and intimate. erotic but not necessarily sexy. and surprisingly funny. i find it hard to critique such a short book, but i do know i liked it. nothing profound, yet still re-routed my thoughts and turned things in my mind to new angles. the image of being in a dark room with the red & green lights of a stereo as the brightest things, lingers in my mind. the over-explaining, rambling, and strangeness did not bother me, only made the conversation more authentic. though there isn’t any difference between the two voices, their input felt equally balanced. i was interested in their respective fodder. mainly the house painters and the tasseled blanket. i was surprised that a book written about sex by a man in the early 90s wasn’t offensive in any way, although maybe that’s a silly assumption to have made.

at home only

Rejection, by Tony Tulathimutte

05/01/2026 - 05/10/2026 (DNF @ 35%)

Short Stories; Hardcover
Acquired 07/05/2025 from Green Oasis Community Garden LFL, Alphabet City

i was so happy to find this crispy new book for free. everyone had been talking about it. it sounded quite unique, particularly its tight focus on one specific theme. unfortunately this felt like reading the internet in long form. basically it’s the ideas we are already fed on a daily basis regurgitated back into the pages of a book. i suppose it is an accurate representation of the time, and for that it does hold value. but because i am alive in 2026, i couldn’t find any of this book original or interesting. don’t get me wrong, there is a lot i agree with, but almost in an obvious way that turned each character into a caricature. many people consider it controversial; unfortunately i couldn’t stand the clear aim to be subversive while putting the author on a pedestal. the characters are horrible, on purpose of course. but it felt like a circle-jerk. yeah these people suck, what else is there to know about them? nothing apparently.

on the train
at home

Beautiful World, Where Are You, by Sally Rooney

04/15/2026 - 04/26/2026

Novel; Hardcover
Acquired 09/13/2025 at Topos, NYC

it’s funny how reluctant i was to ever read a sally rooney novel. it felt a boring, unoriginal choice. and now, finishing book 3 of 4, i fear reaching the end of this limited supply. i savor in each book: its clarity; a distinct voice creating an awareness of being in conversation with a specific mind; a closeness and simplicity that locks you into the moment. this book is easy, yet full of big ideas. examinations of art, capitalism, existentialism, power, life upon a crumbling earth. good sex as usual. an abundance of stifled emotional intimacy. the heap of things left unsaid between people who love or hate each other in rooney’s stories becomes wont, but it is an excellent tool to get a reader to feel genuine angst and frustration alongside the characters. with all the love i have for this book, i also agree with every criticism (expect everyone’s annoyance at the absence of quotation marks) the narration is painfully detailed, mechanical descriptions like a screenplay. one of the four main characters is awful, simply awful. oh, but he loves his dog! there is an unnecessary focus on the thin white body. there is no plot. everyone is awkward. and maybe it’s self-indulgent, but i think rooney is allowed to use a fictional person as a vessel to deliver us her personal woes. the emails obviously also serve as an outlet for her own observations and opinions. i find them fascinating. this is where the characters relate to the world, as the rest of the book is highly concerned with the immediate setting. their correspondence brilliantly provides depth and portrays affection in the girls’ friendship. while the style of writing and thinking is jarringly different from the main narration, you get to see their minds’ robust inner workings in juxtaposition to their otherwise self-conscious, destructive ways. overall there is an undeniable charm throughout this book, enigmatic as it is.

Layla
Maison Premiere
at work
on the train

The Idiot, by Elif Batuman

04/06/2026 - 05/08/2026

Novel; Paperback
Acquired 05/26/2025 at Topos, NYC

i have never and will never read another book like this. it is brilliant and absurd, it really scratches my brain in a hyper-specific way. the naivety paired with the too-big-for—my-brain intellectual analyses kept me on my feet, but perhaps also weighed me down. there were many times i thought, well obviously i’m the idiot here. almost made my eye twitch with the russian literature and the cryptic emails. but i was also totally delighted by the curiosity. the observations that you would otherwise think are too mundane to justify articulation. “a scuba lesson was in session. how did all those people know that they wanted to know how to scuba dive?” few books have made me laugh out loud as much as this one. i truly loved being in selin’s mind. and yet, i often found myself impatient to move things along, specifically in the first half. i’m happy i got to spend a whole month with this book but would’ve been equally as pleased had it been about a hundred pages shorter. this definitely deserves a second read in the future.

at home only

The Dream Hotel, by Laila Lalami

03/31/2026 - 04/13/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from NYPL via Libby
Book Club with Mikaela & Abigail

woof. this just dragged and dragged. i’ve enjoyed lalami’s writing before, but this felt like something just anyone could’ve written. no finesse. no character development or compelling relationships. poor world-building. maybe i don’t love dystopian or imprisonment settings? the concept of dream surveillance really piqued my interest, but there was little exploration of its implications. there was mention of the ability to advertise within dreams, which was intriguing but sadly only briefly mentioned. continuously felt like a compilation of new ideas abandoned without investigation, voiding them of any significance. i’m not interested in reading a book that has everything and its meanings laid out for me, but so much was left unsaid that it became an overwhelming pile of miscellaneous (useless) information. don’t get me started on that pov shift. the lack of longing or emotional connection to her husband was blatant, like they didn’t really care for each other. i realize incarceration only exasperates life’s difficulties, specifically for family members on the outside, but his seemingly quick abandonment of ‘husband duties’ left me with little sympathy for him. sadly, her life seems only slightly less unsatisfying as an inmate. the clawing impatience to finish this book felt stronger than sara’s desire to leave the center.

Leo
at work
on the train

The Hypocrite, by Jo Hamya

03/19/2026 - 03/29/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from QPL via Libby

brilliant but hard to catch the rhythm. i restarted this twice before committing. i began a different book in the meantime with the intention to not revisit this one. the set-up is incredible, it is unique. love the play as a vessel for interrogation. the book’s overarching ideas, especially the complicated father-daughter relationship, are always on my reading menu. not only the themes, but quite specific aspects are what i’ve planned for my own novel = abandoning life to move in and relieve a family member in despair; co-dependent relationship based on creative output; a notable fish tank. while i can’t say i particularly enjoyed this book, it was necessary for me to read. it’s interesting to see my thoughts arranged differently from the way i know them. that another mind has the same impulse to tie these ideas together. yet, this book felt too smart for me. i’m glad i read this as an ebook with the amenity of a built-in dictionary.

on the train
at home

An American Marriage, by Tayari Jones

03/15/2026 - 04/05/2026

Novel; Paperback
Borrowed from Olivia

this book is a perfect example of forgiveness. yes, the actual story is all about weighing one’s ability to forgive, as well as awaiting the forgiveness of others. however what i mean is: there is a lot in this book that i find fault with, yet some other quality rises above any of that to make this a great book. while in other cases i may strike points because the multiple perspectives sound too similarly, serious topics aren’t elaborated upon, or because the plot is predictable - with this book, i’ll forgive it all. there is an authenticity to the voices, though they lack distinction, that creates an easy intimacy. despite the all around shit situation, these were people i looked forward to spending time with. i was particularly charmed by big roy. initially i wished there was more discussion around the injustice system, but i can appreciate that this story is more thought-provoking and less focused on dramatics. i will say, one undeniable issue i have is not feeling the connection between celestial and roy. though i rooted for roy the whole time, it wasn’t because i wanted him to end up with celestial. i thought each would be fine without the other. i just wanted closure, joy, respect for roy. i did lose a little love for him when he states “i can, but i won’t”. however this is simply a way to show us how his years in prison have altered his view of humanity and of himself. i honestly thought my enjoyment would end there, but i was able to forgive roy.

at home only

The Memory Police, by Yoko Ogawa

03/06/2026 - 03/17/2026

Translated from Japanese, by Stephen Snyder

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from NYPL via Libby

yoko ogawa’s writing is reliably confounding in its ability to be rich while using such sparse language. she is an author i trust wholeheartedly to carry me along in comfort, like being wrapped in a heavy blanket by someone you love. while i don’t love this as much as housekeeper & professor, it still charms me in this particular way. the portrayal of the memory police’s surveillance, abductions, military-like presence are very similar to what we witness in real life, past and presently. this heaviness mixed with ogawa’s trademark gentle examinations make for a pleasant balance. there are higher tension points, but mostly a mundane serenity. i need to give the manuscript some thought - its parallels surely mean more than i’ve given consideration. generally i’m not into a book within a book, but this worked for me. it took me a long time to realize our narrator wasn’t genetically able to hold her memories and confusedly waited for that revelation. i was bothered by the vague logistics of the disappearances. once objects are apart of the sea and technically off the island, they ‘cease to exist’? how does the old man continue to live on the old ferry? but, whatever. i loved the old man, his relationship to our narrator, her fixation on his hands, and the peaceful meals they shared. really liked the ending with its shift in power and the inevitable losses.

Bar Madonna
at work
on the train

The Rachel Incident, by Caroline O’Donoghue

03/01/2026 - 03/14/2026

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 03/28/2025 from Minneapolis LFL

there was not a moment of disinterest or impatience in reading this. i was into it every step of the way. while this book isn’t saying anything new, it speaks clearly. everyone has their role and everything feels fully realized. i was amused, surprised, validated. while not profound, i noted so many lines that resonated with me. this is not the best book, but it is perfect.

at home mostly
laundromat

The Wilderness, by Angela Flournoy

02/16/2026 - 03/05/2026 (DNF at 75%)

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from NYPL via Libby

there was so much good in here, sadly lost by trying to keep up with the alternating perspectives and timelines. i was constantly going back to the previous chapter to see which year we’d been in, as an attempt to bring even a little context to the next chapter. there was no connective tissue, no indication as to how these people’s experiences related to one another. the relationship dynamics within the sections were great, but big picture did not work out. this created an immediate disconnect from the story that ultimately made me give it up. some sections, namely desiree and nakia’s stories, were very engaging. to monique: i’m so sorry, completely skipped over your sections. i generally like a story told in vignettes, but here there was no cohesion, no resolution. there were too many ideas trying to be made important in a small space. overall i agree with the core values and big ideas brought up. the author is clearly very intelligent, but the execution of this project was really unfulfilling, frustrating to the point of boredom. i find it hard to imagine how one can enjoy this book. sorry. perhaps if i could convince myself to read this on a sentence level only, i’d glide through unbothered.

L’imprimerie
YellowSun Coffee
Ten Bells
The Bedford
laundromat
at work
on the train

The White Hot, by Quiara Alegría Hudes

02/13/2026 - 02/25/2026

Novel; Hardcover
Borrowed from DeKalb Library, Brooklyn

very good, but beyond me. any displeasure in reading was likely due to my reading too shallowly. i did love the voice; casual terms along poetic phrases. at times it went a little too deep into the writer’s mind, where i couldn’t grasp at anything to steady my footing. i couldn’t decide if the book was too smart for me, or if hudes was simply trying too hard. beyond disinterest in motherhood, i had no idea what this novel would be and was pleasantly surprised by her temporary life in the wilderness. took a minute to realize the need to suspend my disbelief. i felt a little dirty reading this and began associating with my type A self in a shameful way. while i don’t mind tension and anxiety, i was constantly impatient with april’s destructive decisions. and her betrayal of kamal bothered me til the end, even though he felt a very willing participant in her bullshit shenanigans. definitely would’ve had a more active-minded experience with this book had april been even slightly likable.

at home mostly
Sunrise Sunset

Going to Meet the Man, by James Baldwin

02/09/2026 - xx

Short Stories; Paperback
Acquired 09/19/2023 at Split Rock Books in Cold Spring, NY

reading paused…
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at home only

My Dark Vanessa, by Kate Elizabeth Russell

02/01/2026 - 02/14/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from SPL via Libby

this story felt like someone recalling real memories. it was very immersive and unfortunately very believable. felt like reading a memoir and overall maybe that’s why i didn’t love it. a little too expository, lacking in emotional depth. i had the same issue reading being lolita which is an incredibly similar story, a memoir in fact. had i not read that, maybe this would’ve hit harder. still, i can use the words excellent, impressive, and accurate to describe this book. i appreciated and understood: vanessa’s need to not label her experience as ‘a victim’; the need to protect what she defined as her first love; her delusion of being in control of this highly manipulated situation; her oscillating between repulsion and a desperation to be of value. understandably there is an emotional distance that is impossible to bridge, as vanessa has not come to terms with her abuse. her earlier trauma continues to infect her daily life and she refuses to acknowledge her demons, even in therapy. while possibly true to life, as a reading experience i was bothered by the absence of resolution. at the end, you’re just like ok cool, everybody sucks. i was hoping for something big after large sections of repetition and seemingly unnecessary details. also kind of lost me when he died so early in the book. not that that was a loss. i wish this book were shorter. the sections i liked will stay with me for a long time.

L’imprimerie
Sunrise Sunset
laundromat
Katan
at work
on the train
on the bus

Tilt, by Emma Pattee

01/26/2026 - 02/08/2026

Novel; Hardcover
Acquired 03/2025
Otherppl Book Club

*replaced*
Paperback (stunning! gorgeous!)
Acquired 01/30/2026 from Ridgewood LFL

a real page-turner. in that can’t-look-away-from-a-car-crash type of way, because you were born and raised in the PNW and your parents still live there, so why on earth would you read, and enjoy, a book about The Big One? i’m not really sure, but i do love a book set in a place i’m familiar with. considering the plot of navigating a city wrecked by natural disaster, the sense of place could’ve been stronger. the setting is ripe for overstimulation and gawking and horror, yet it was never nerve-racking or visceral in the way i expected. half the book is flashbacks to an unfulfilling life, a feeling of paralysis that i can relate to. despite her inner turmoil and trying circumstance, it was difficult to sympathize with annie. i’m sure she was suffering from pregnancy discomfort and hormones, but as soon as she grabs the ikea employee in the first couple pages, i developed a dislike that was never able to resolve itself. with that said, i actually did enjoy this book. there’s some suspense, domestic strife, a new-to-me plot, apprehension toward motherhood, and of course the city of portland. also it shows how everything in your world can change instantly, even as the rest of the world continues on as scheduled. oh, bean <3

at home only

Heart the Lover, by Lily King

01/26/2026 - 01/31/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from SPL via Libby

engaging and easy with moments of sweetness and aching that require pause. imo the title is clunky until you uncover its origin - fun, even precious. while not perfect, it’s the kind of seamless writing that hits all the right notes, with lines to make you stop in recognition of the years it must’ve taken king to perfect her craft. this is an unsatisfying love story, that’s the point, yet i was hoping for more time with yash and jordan as a couple. although the ending had me holding back tears, the emotional impact could’ve been stronger if we’d gotten to spend more time with these two on good terms. i know that we can love people despite the ways they betray us, but as a reader i was so pissed over yash’s cowardice in leaving jordan and in hiding from sam. and my excitement over their relationship was dampened simply by their years of separation. was also hoping for more of casey/jordan’s life as a writer. then i remembered writers & lovers. regardless, i would gladly have read 100 more pages of this book.

Sofia Gourmet
on the train
at work

Dominion, by Addie E. Citchens

01/16/2026 - 01/25/2026

Novel; eBook, Kobo
Borrowed from SPL via Libby

i had no idea where this was headed, but i was enthusiastically along for the ride. the voice is engaging, familiar, clear. you really trust it. love the southern small-town humor and hypocrisy among these church folks. every one comes alive in their tracking and judging of others. and as the reader, there is plenty to judge. the fact that this guy was more bothered by potentially being a little gay than having just killed a man OH MAN. absolute dog shit human, and yet the story revolves around him and it’s still such an enjoyable read. his mother is fabulous and i was overjoyed by her decision to abandon her privileged life to get away from these foolish men. could not have cared less about diamond but she was essential, and a reminder of how we can criticize those who love evil more than the evil itself. there is a lot of ugly in this book, but a very satisfying read regardless. stunning balance of getting into characters minds and following a clear line through and out.

Maison Premiere
L’imprimerie
laundromat
at work
on the train

Parable of the Sower, by Octavia E. Butler

09/08/2025 - 01/26/2026 (reread)

Novel; Paperback
Acquired 2019, NYC (maybe)
Book club with Tyler

an obvious classic. this is such an accessible book, it should be required reading. the writing is straight-forward and the content is bleak, but it is not without humor or tenderness. however, considering lauren’s hyper-empathy, there could be much more emotion. but i guess that’s not what this book is about. thinking of the state of the world, the closeness conceived by emotion could make this an uncomfortable read. thankfully, there is still enough distance between this fictional world and my privileged experience that i can be entertained. i longed for more connection to the group and consequently to feel more for them at difficult points. admittedly i had no reaction to jill’s death. hopefully we can get to know these characters a little better in the sequel.

at home only

01/13/2026 - 01/14/2026

Hunchback, by Saou Ichikawa

Translated from Japanese, by Polly Barton

Novel; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 01/02/2026 at Strand Books, NYC

this cover is so charming. i love the paintbrush strokes and the gentle colors, the millennial pink. i wanted to read this so bad because the cover said: there is art in here. the premise deterred me as i feared the woman’s situation of living life as a disabled person would be what the book stood on. i am happy to read about relentless mucus buildup, or almost literally chocking to death on cum, but the book failed to prove it was written to do more than “shock the masses!” with that said, this book did not have as much sex as i expected. i wouldn’t have minded more of shaka’s writing on her WordPress on her iPad mini. her abortion mission was definitely my kind of humor. the ending won me over on this book. i can’t say i would ever recommend this to anyone, but it’s smart, and i didn’t NOT like it. if this book were longer and had the chance to build on some of its background thoughts, i think i would’ve really enjoyed it. but this is the way it was chosen to be published.

on the train

01/02/2026 - 01/12/2026

Be My Guest, by Priya Basil

Essay / Memoir; Paperback, ARC
Acquired 05/03/2025 at Strand Books, NYC

i read the majority of this book about hospitality on a week off from making money in the hospitality industry. i read be my guest as a guest in bars & restaurants around the city. notably: The Up & Up, Claud, Fellini Coffee. for a little book, it was like entering a deep cozy box. i suppose food writing will always do that for me. but also the writing is generous in its vulnerability and compassion. as with most non-fiction, the repetition gets to me when driving at certain points. i know this is inherent to non-fiction, and that’s probably why i don’t read much of it. but i need to remember it is, as with this book, worthwhile.

Velvette Coffee
The Standard
Otis
Fellini Coffee
The Up & Up
Claud
on the train